A few days ago I was scared out of my mind. What was I thinking...going on an adventure like this? I could handle the tour through Tulum and even the snorkeling in a cenote. But repelling from a tall tower and zip lining over 80 feet in the air? I mean, I'm a mom and a wife and I shouldn't act so recklessly...right?
There was all this logic pouring out into my brain that felt and looked like fear. I definitely recognized the fear. This time I didn't want it to take over my actions because I wanted to face my fears as I knew it would be a lot of fun if I could fight through it. My knees were literally shaking as I'm not that great with heights and my hands were sweating..profusely. However ridiculously scared out of my mind I was, I mustered up the confidence to repel off that tall tower and zip line...twice! It was awesome and I was so proud of myself for following through. There was a freedom and a release of putting aside my logical "thinking" and just doing.
It made me ask myself what I was really holding onto in the first place. I don't think I ever have a grasp on anything anyway. It parallels with what I've been learning lately. When it really comes down to it, I have no control....even when I think I do. Life will play out as it's suppose to despite my efforts to worry. So why not let go and enjoy the ride? All this coming from a self-diagnosed Obsessive Compulsive Personality Disorder that suffers from perfectionism and lives with Type-A characteristics. Hey...at least I'm trying.
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So awesome!!
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